Secret #14: Lost...

I feel like I've lost all my confidence.

I don't know why, but I can't talk to people.

It's hard for me to find something to say to the guys I want to talk to.

Normally you can't shut me up.

Instead I'm terrified that if I open my mouth I'll get hurt, or hurt someone.

That's not like me.

And it worries me.

Secret #13: What if?

I like him.

Alot.

But I think I might have made a mistake sleeping with him right away.

But he's just so damn adorable.

How could I resist that cute, aggravating smile of his, the one that means he's about to annoy the hell out of me and make me laugh while doing it?

And I'm just so intimidated by him.

I don't know why, but he seems like he's out of reach for me.

I know my girls have said that I'm too pretty for him, but looks aren't what I'm talking about.

What if he realizes that I'm really just that insecure teenage girl who got hurt all those years ago?

What if he realizes that I'm a nerd?

That I don't have the slightest idea what it means to be in a normal, healthy relationship?

What if, what if, what if.